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Tuesday, 04 November 2008

  • Asian-American?

    So, I went to my first Starfield concert tonight. I must say, it was an amazing night of worship and it was such a blessing to be there and to hear the testimonies of the members of both of the bands share through their lyrics and their words how God had been impacting their lives thus far. Plus, I basically fell in love with an up and coming band: Above the Golden State.  But, anyway, that’s not the reason I’m blogging.

    The thing is, after the opening act (Above the Golden State, as represented by Michael Watson), left the stage, a video played while Starfield was setting up. Now, I’m sure that they played it just for comedic effect, but something about the video left me unsettled.  The video opens with a Southeast Asian man speaking in a monotone, clearly broken English as he advertises a synth keyboard.  The beginning is extremely dry and the man seems as though a robot just listing off various items.  He does receive some redemption by the end of the video, however, as he unseemingly plays a pretty sweet set off of the synth keyboard.

    I really felt that God was stirring something in me because I knew that this wasn’t a part of His Kingdom, so He somehow gave me the courage to approach them about it after the concert.  I waited until they came out from the back and most of the crowd had left; only a few had remained to get autographs and pictures with the band.  Probably because I was nervous, in front of a band that I admire, and that I was speaking to a bunch of strangers, I pretty much jumbled up everything that I meant to say.  I tried as hard as I could to express how I felt, but I don’t think I got across much and although I am definitely glad that I said anything at all, I didn’t think I gave the situation enough justice as it deserved and I felt slightly patronized in their response. So, here’s what I would have said if I could go back and do it over again…

    “Dear Starfield,

    Let me start off by saying that I was truly blessed to be at your concert tonight and just to be worshipping with you guys.  It’s so encouraging to see you guys using your God-given talents to glorify Him and further His kingdom.  However, I did want to mention one thing because I feel like God really stirred something in my heart while I was sitting at my seat in the audience.  I don’t know how you guys will receive what I have to say, but I hope that God will speak His truths to you regardless of what I say.  I pray that anything from my mouth that is not from God would be forgotten and that only His truths and righteousness would remain. Here goes.

    I don’t know whether or not you chose the video that played before you guys came up to worship and I definitely do not mean to imply that you had any malicious intent in playing the video if you did choose it.  It is a comical and enjoyable video and to most, I’m sure it did not bother them at all.  But, I think the very reason that we as a society, even as a Christian fellowship, have become so numb to the stereotypes around us should cause us to do something about it.  I personally felt that the video perpetuated the stereotypes of Asian-Americans as emotionless, unable to speak English properly, and robotic.  The mere fact that he was the one in a video using a synth keyboard pretty much distinguishes him as “different” from the “normal”--whatever that means.

    But, I think that God desires for us to be united in His Kingdom.  Paul writes in 1 Corinthians, “But God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honor to the parts that lacked it, so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other.”  As Christians, we are held to a higher standard and I think that God wants us to step out of the racial divisions that society has forced upon us, to rejoice and take hold of our unique multicultural identities in Him, and to unite as ONE body.  As followers of Christ, we need to question the norms of society and ask how God can be glorified through everything that we do, even if it seems like race isn’t something that applies to us because we’re from the majority culture.  Actually, it applies to everyone and it should apply to the church as well.

    And you know, I don’t know what you will choose to do with this. I pray that God will speak to you and my saying this is how I can be faithful; I can’t change your mind about things or force you to do something that you don’t believe in your heart as well. But, I appreciate you guys listening to me at least speak what was on my heart and I hope that whatever happens, God is glorified.”

Wednesday, 23 April 2008

  • Sin.

    But if you fail to do this, you will be sinning against the LORD; and you may be sure that your sin will find you out.
    - Numbers 32:23

    Sometimes I think people view Christianity as a list of rules you're required to follow for the "arbitrary" reason that God told us to. Actually, sometimes I think even we as Christians view it that way too. But, I really like what someone once told me, God gave us these commandments for a reason. Half of the commandments give glory to God above all else and the others are about loving each other and loving yourself. Sin hurts others or yourself.

    The more I realize it, the more I realize that the sins of my past that I don't fully repent, confess, and deal with come back to haunt me. Just as it says in Numbers, "[my] sin will find [me] out". Sin that we choose not to deal with will find us out and slowly do damage to us over time. Adam's sin has carried over into our own lives and forever taints us.

    What are we hiding now that we will become later? What are we hiding even from God?  I don't know what it is that sometimes prevents me from confessing to God...maybe it's doubt that He can change and transform my wretched body.  But, if God has the power of raising Christ from the dead, then what power does He lack?

    Yes, it seems like there's an endless list of rules or things we're supposed to follow. But, ultimately God made those commandments for our own good and He is ultimately concerned with the state of our heart and soul.

Sunday, 30 December 2007

  • relationships should come with a booklet of instructions and a checklist of checkpoints and safeguards. all the books in the world didn't teach me what i needed to be taught. there's a lot of things that i learned after the fact that would have been much more helpful during. and some things i never thought that i would have to consider that i should have considered long ago.

    although, i suppose retrospective vision is always 20/20.

    so here's to 2008 and new beginnings, healing, and moving on. all of your prayers and support are greatly appreciated. really.

Sunday, 25 November 2007

Tuesday, 11 September 2007

  • Awaken what’s inside of me
    Tune my heart to all You are in me
    Even though You’re here, God come
    And may the vision of You
    Be the death of me
    And even though you’ve given everything
    Jesus come.

    -"Vision of You" - Shane & Shane

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